Am I the LAST fat girl?
WHOA?! I know where the Bleep have I been. I have triplets, they’re great for getting out of things, using them as excuses and blaming things on – so that’s what I’m doing here – it’s because of the triplets. Generally if you dont hear from me, it’s a good thing – it means I have nothing to complain about.
Today – Im complaining.
Not about kids – ironically enough.
It seems to me, that I’m the last fat girl standing. I’m frustrated with myself, but Im making progress so Im not sure what the issue is – but there is an issue. I feel like Im the last fat girl standing. It seems EVERYONE is either now thin, thinner or are getting thing.
You see, I have a “twitter” friend who I screatly stalk who has Twins – her name is Pam – she blogs over here at word on the beach. I get her frustration. I get the “1,2,3 go” and then the “oh shit I forgot to start” frustration of loosing weight.
In fairness to myself I’ve done good. I’m at the point where I’m willing to talk numbers. Numbers can always be a little ugly – credit card statments …ugly. Mortgages…ugly. Taxes…ugly – numbers are just plain ugly. I’ve been up and I’ve been down all the sizes between 12-26. Yes 26, no you can’t find that in a regular store. Right now I sit at…*grumble errr* 191 – there we go I said it OUT LOUD. I guess that’s a first step, kind of like AA meetings right. Hi, My name is Brigitte Cusson I weigh 191 pounds. I even know some skinny girls who wont say what they weigh so there HA I just “one upped you”. Anyways here I am at 191 pounds. It’s good…. because you want to know the scary part?
Yup – 270 pounds. There’s where I started after the birth of the triplets. It feels weird even writting that. Two Hundred and Seventy. WOW. So in fairness to me, I have lost 79 pounds in the ohhh 12 months or so I’ve been trying. But it seems to take FOREVER. Sometimes I day dream about chocolate cake. – You know the saying .. I like you like a fat kid loves chocolate cake – Im that fat kids who LOVES chocolate cake.
ANYWAYS, I keep snacking on chocolate ( Im seeing a trend here – chocolate addict) I keep having this start, go , stop feeling about dieting. The end goal is 145 pounds. That’s 46 more pounds to go. I just have to focus, I need to stop making excuses. I need to be more like my friend Sara. She amazes me!